I felt so helpless today. I went down to Fortune Centre in Bugis to do an installment payment for the options course. Turns out, I need a credit card for that ! So the lady tried to swipe my card multiple times for the balance amount but the maximum she could was S$1k. Now I have to ask my sis to lend me her credit card. It's probably time for me to get my own card.
It's scary for me. Going to an office in 11th storey. A not-yet-20yo kid taking on the corporate working area. All these big and lonely decisions about the stockmarket course. I'd wish someone could lend me a hand on this journey to financial freedom. I wonder what's other guys who just ord-ed doing. I hope I'm right about this course and prepared enough to extract money from the stockmarket losers. If not, I've got nothing.

Here's a song to broadcast my feelings.

Too much love will kill you - Queen

I'm just the pieces of the man I used to be
Too many bitter tears are raining down on me
I'm far away from home
And I've been facing this alone
For much too long
I feel like no-one ever told the truth to me
About growing up and what a struggle it would be
In my tangled state of mind
I've been looking back to find
Where I went wrong

Too much love will kill you
If you can't make up your mind
Torn between the lover
And the love you leave behind
You're headed for disaster
cos you never read the signs
Too much love will kill you
Every time

I'm just the shadow of the man I used to be
And it seems like there's no way out of this for me
I used to bring you sunshine
Now all I ever do is bring you down
How would it be if you were standing in my shoes
Can't you see that its impossible to choose
No there's no making sense of it
Every way I go I'm bound to lose

Too much love will kill you
Just as sure as none at all
It'll drain the power that's in you
Make you plead and scream and crawl
And the pain will make you crazy
You're the victim of your crime
Too much love will kill you
Every time

Too much love will kill you
It'll make your life a lie
Yes, too much love will kill you
And you wont understand why
You'd give your life, you'd sell your soul
But here it comes again
Too much love will kill you
In the end...
In the end.

Week 3 day 2 was done today. It rained after I went into JJ so I had to improvise by using a thin mattress behind LT 5 for my workouts. I never stopped massaging my legs in between workouts just now !
Only until now, I realised I read the workout instructions for the step-ups wrongly. It said 2x15. I always did 15 in a set. But to think about it, isn't one leg going to get an extra rep? So I did 4 sets of 15 lunges indoor in place of the 2x15 step ups. I almost crashed out in the last set of that.Managed to do a few sets of flexibility exercises to strengthen my core muscles.

Now I'm going to show you the Swede who will keep the flame burning for his country in hjump- Linus Thörnblad. In this video I uploaded, he's got the "SEY" factor. Gotta thank the skilled cameraman in focusing on the bouncing crossbar at the right time. And YEAH ! You can jump with a sleepy hairstyle if you want to. I will look out for this Swede after the departure of Staffan and Holm.

-Finian

Right now I'm training 3 times a week for hjump while waiting for my options course to start on 9 dec. The course is gonna make me quite poor, but I will see how it will work out for me in trading the stockmarket before I try and look for a part-time job next year.

Btw, I hope the sky u see above ur ship is not as scary as the one on my blog. hahas. Hope all is well for u.

Today's timetable:
Played the piano quite a bit after I woke up and re-watched Pride featuring Kimura and Yuko Takeuchi. Within 1 hour I'll be on my way back to JJ again. I want to wear my Lewis cap but the sun isn't big enough. In fact the dimmed sky signals an oncoming rainfall.

I fished something out from Lynn's blog... It goes something like, "...Anyone wanna contribute to my laptop fund? I'm looking at MacAir coz it's light, very light, and very very light..."

I will always remember Lynn for her funny jokes !

My colleague in office, Keng Sen(biggest size guy), asked me what will I do on the day after I ORD. My mind was a blank. But now, I have to be at home after lunch because a new LCD TV is coming.
Going library to return books.
And I've decided to give Mr Tan a call abt joining WAC. Tks Ronnie.
If I wake up early enough then it's basketball to get my legs jumping. Going library to return books.

Ay ay ! Finished serving the country today. Damned it did everyone who ord on the same day went off earlier than me? I'm destined for working extra hard...

It felt great giving her the present on Friday evening of Nov 7. A sense of accomplishment for a man much more than donating blood (which i did a week ago
).
A month ago I had asked her when was her birthday. Vaguely but truly, it was Nov 10. That evening was humid and warm as I waited for her at the control station in Clementi. She was late but it didn't matter to me at all. I was more than willing to wait, because in return I met a stunning picture-perfect girl who would look ordinary from far. No more glasses, and no more braces which was a huge surprise for me. We talked a little before I laid the item of the day on her hands.

The whole "present" thing was a roller coaster ride of feelings. First I decided to make a present. A swamp of setbacks but I had time on my side. Then next was how to get her to meet me. Over a meal or just meet together. Last was what do I say to her when I finally see her? I haven't seen her for 3 years. I guessed I turned out really okay in the end.

Like how Edmund puts it, "Way to go man !"

Today was the end of AA week 2.
Nothing worth mentioning except that I wore a pair of racers to train. My Mizuno Aero Wave is not at home ! And, during the first week my thighs and hips would leave a burning sensation. But this week I felt normal.
I jumped for the basketball rim and i'm short 5-7cm. It is the closest I've ever got to it. I'm well on my way to grabbing it.

Haha look at 2:16 of the clip where the Ferrari garage finally got the twist of the news.
I'm going to try that on Edmund in office on Monday. Going to hug him deep deep and cheer. Then I'll stop abruptly and say, "Huh Massa not world champion?"
We are so going to laugh our asses off...

Lewis Hamilton - The youngest driver to win the F1 championship on 2 Nov 2008 at age of 23 and 300 days. I think I can wear my Mclaren Lewis Hamilton cap around more often now. I don't agree with the media's grunts that Lewis is all arrogant. There is just a pinch more of extra determination and burning desire in him as a young and ambitious driver. Others perceive him the negative way but I like him that way. Let them say whatever they want, the all-time favourite Ferrari drivers didn't win. That's it. I am definitely going back to the local Gran Prix again in '09. But it's hard to decide which grandstand.

F1 Trivia:
Lewis Hamilton set himself on a path to Formula One when he introduced himself to McLaren team boss Ron Dennis at the 1995 Autosport Awards. The nine year-old from Tewin, Hertfordshire, walked up to Dennis, asked for his autograph and then said: “Hi. I’m Lewis Hamilton. I won the British Championship and one day I want to be racing your cars.” He was only 10 years old back then.

Do what you loved as a kid.

I may want to learn macromedia or java after I ORD to create some images representative of my luv for jumping !