Jumping onto a cloud of faith.

I received my chemistry common test from ms zhang 15mins before lesson ended. She yelled abit at me for leaving my answer blank for MCQ Qn 4. First a 17/30 for MCQ. Lol. Really had nothing to say about this score. I know I didn't do my best at all to study enough but tried to absorb everything I'm not sure about the chapters. Like a sponge. Not spongebob *yuko! hee.
Then when ms zhang handed over my paper 2 and I looked through my marks the 1st time round, I had mixed feelings. 24/50. Failed but I'm not sad. I remembered my classmate Tee Yien saying proudly about his answers for qn 5. He said so confidently about it and it made me so nervous because mine were all so different! He's those kind of abit haolian guy (negatively) though he's quite nice together with me. But I scored 9/11 marks for that qn. I remarked, "Huh. Who said so sure about this qn?" Still, 41/80. Pass for chemistry. Physics would be worse I reckon. Maths...hmm....hard to guess.
I learned a good lesson in sec 1. After I took the first maths test, I told a girl beside me that I will surely score very well(damn haolian la...Regrettably). In the end I failed by a far margin. From then onwards I mentioned my expectations for exam results conservatively.
I bet everyone else had a better chance in the common test than me. I didn't feel competitive enough to get good scores if you know what I mean in implicit terms. Didn't actually study enough! I feel abit like the top scholar(Liu yun) in my sec sch now..trying to be ahead of what the teachers are teaching. I don't want the teachers to set my learning pace. One day I'll be behind time again. There is no way to maintain equilibrium if I follow exactly what the teachers give.
I want to thank my Chinese teacher for her word of enlightenment. She said, "The only difference between you and the good JC students is a word, 'lazy' " From that day onwards I tried really hard to utilize my free time.

`!END!~