Jumping onto a cloud of faith.

I'm cramming chem into my brain, slow and steadily. Yeah. Sometimes I tell myself," I've come so far in the exam already. Don't waste it. Remember that time you studied so bloody hard for the chem practical ? Yeah if you give up this time you'll waste that good record back then." I gotta tell myself to carry on breathing and thinking during exams. Don't stop. Mr Tham always told me that. Once you stop you won't be able to recover easily.

Why should there be exams? It causes me so much trama and anxiety ! I think it's my bad karma that partly i'm in singapore. Stuck in the vigorous education system. It's a good system that many countries want to model, but it has its flaws. Firstly students are branded smart or dumb at early age and they live with that tag over many years of education. It's easier for the teachers and authority to identify the good from bad, but it isn't really good for the student's character. Hardly anyone can jump from "being dumb" to "being smart".
Second, there is hardly anything to do except to study and study the subjects. Sooner or later, studies will take top priority and those who chose to pursue an alternative path(like me, I wanted to go all out with my jumps but studies eventually forced me to stop that) will face difficulties.

I think Singapore don't deserve to win medals at the Olympics because of this. But hey, why don't we see a local winner in the Physics and Maths Nobel stage. I have no idea too. Maybe we are too squared+cooped up in the education system. The unique talents of individual students are not very much appreciated here. Even so, there isn't even development in the specific interest fields that can provide further honing for the pupils.

Ya this is a passe debate, but I gotta mention it because everytime I see a toddler on the road I ask myself, "Geez, you are so gonna study all those things in school. Wonder if you'll be recognised as smart or not so smart. What will become of you after that?" I mean Singapore is not as free a society as America. There isn't much to do locally except to study, enter workforce and soon before you know it you're collecting your elder welfare money and hoping the government release some shares for extra cash.

I am so getting out of Singapore if I have the chance to...I've always imagine migrating to NZ or Aust and live in some high class elusive area. Then pay all the expenses for my friends who I want them to visit me :) Or even better, I'll pick them up in Singapore with my private jet and we can have fun on the plane !! Shiok ah... Can have party of more than 10 ppl !