Ohhh the haze. Love and hate it. I am more happy to see the psi readings on the TV going up and up. I'm always like this. Love to see things getting adventurous when the haze gets bad. I went down to buy a sack of rice from the mama store and the haze was like morning mist, except that it wasn't cool. And the air isn't healthy to breathe. That's the hate part. I felt the air was heavier, perhaps due to the vision of the haze that made me think so.

Didn't go study with finian this morning either. Had planned out to do physics, but guessed I woke up on the wrong side of bed. Had a bad bout of flu. Slept through lunch time and slacked. I haven't even touched my work. I'll do some physics later. Maths and chem is on the track already. need to practise more for physics. That's what finian and david chua told me.

And oh, Shaun dislocated his left shoulder on thursday during soccer play time. kept forgetting to blog abt it. the soccer gang told me a vivid story abt it. kanhong sent him to NUH to bandage up. It's okay, says the patient Shaun. When we talked abt it during recess, John the englishman/football fan/gp teacher secret admirer commented on Kanhong bringing Shaun to the hospital for 3 hours, "You could've done a maths paper !" Then Kanhong fought back comically, "Eh then you say I waste time there ah?" John then tried his best to deny that he's being mean about the mishap. Shaun wasn't in school on friday. The VP said we're gonna take attendance strictly until end of semester because there might be an outbreak of stomach flu in schools. Mr azmi (form teacher) said they gotta give a reason for any absentees on their list by calling parents to check. Dang. Dunno how Lynn will curb her habit of ponning school haha...

Go Go ! I keep telling myself I need to know what I've just read when I close my notes. No use skimming through the pages and just copying the answers from them.
Dinner TIME !

mel gave me 2 surprises yesterday. First she brought me to a conducive study room in GekPo cc. Other than studying, there's nothing else to do, really. Mel got bored and went off track to play with her friends haha...

2nd surprise. Man that was mind-blowing. Mel's friend was exactly a replica of my ex-crush( ya tt one in JJC). But my crush is more english-based and less hyperactive lol. Saw chengwai in the toilet before he went into the study room as well.

gahaha, i left a surprise for mel-san too.

that was yesterday.

Today. Alright, let's draw up the plan.
Later 10+am, meet finian and maybe liuyun at ginza plaza kfc. I requested to study there coz the jurong regional library sibei crowded. After mugging, going to play pool with finian. I always win him in accuracy but sometimes his luck is super xiong and i'll be the one defeated. Win/lose no big deal. Gotta enjoy the time together and exchange tips...talk abt each other's lives.

Hah. learning FFVIII Julia now. It's a super short and sweet piece. I heard from forum that its actually an instrumental remake of Eyes On Me. If that's the case, then I will be learning 3 songs, each from FFVIII ~ FFX ! Tmd I came online because my sis wanted me to carry her burden of my troubling cousin daniel. F man... always bother us with noob questions and tasks. tt's why i'm online with my laptop in my tiny room.

Oh my God. Stop torturing me. I'm still waiting for her to contact me... She seemed to have visited friendster but nv noticed my efforts!? Nevermind, I still can see her in my bookmarks hurhur :) She's super sweet la...

linnet(i dun like nette), the teacher is lin lao shi :P

New FFX video. Yuna looks so real at 5:00 minute. Don't even seem like it's just computer graphics. Need I say more?

My Gosh. I hit a technological miracle on Sunday. After much searching, I finally found my primary school teacher in Friendster.com ! I'm still waiting for her to contact me.
When I looked at her friendster pic, my heart just melted away!
I didn't know why that day i decided to search for her again in friendster and flipped 7 pages of results to find that familiar face.
She's still as angelic as I knew her then. Seeing her pic again, lol, I now know why then in my innocent years I liked her so much! I'm still right that she's beautiful! haha. But now i'm all grown up, have to divide the lines well :)
I dare say up till now, no other teachers I've seen can match up to her, in looks lolx. I've met with the angel again. Thank God if it was you who made this possible.

School sux today. Maths lesson was totally not useful. Miss Lang gave back my maths pp 2. 40.5/100. Then want us to do corrections. But some of the chapters or half of it I should say, I haven't even revised yet ! So I was like an idiot staring into space. It's not that I lazy, I just like to revise on chapters that I chose and practise one step at a time. Okay, maybe I'm angry with Ms Lang because I'm angry at myself for being lazy and didn't study for prelims and so got those shit marks. F*** it man... I have one last chance to make the mark. Logging Off.

EH ~! What is with those people ?? This guy totally messed up my morning ! I was outside the JRL library before it opened. So I sat on the concrete ledge and wait. Then this guy came over and say, "Excuse me, can i sit here?" I gave him a shrugged yes. He turned to me and asked me if I believe in God. DAMN ! Why does christians need to spread the word around? If Christianity was so true, then surely it will come to non-believers as natural that they want to learn more about it, without any prompting.

Okay, back to the basic question. Do I believe in God? For the one and only God, ah yes to some extent. To Jesus, as answering that guy who kept talking non-stop to me, I want to believe but I can't yet. For me, I just try to substitute God into all those situations and questions about life that no one can answer for sure, like what's going to happen after life? No one knows, because the dead will not come back and tell you which place he went. Life has many things science can answer, but not God and vice versa.

I really wanted to shoot that christian guy some questions man! But I held back. I would ask him, "what do you celebrate on Dec 25th?" He confirm say "the birth of Jesus...." and all the grandmother stories. Then I'll shoot back, "But according to the Bible, Jesus was born in March. So wth are we celebrating it in Dec?"
You want to know why? I dun really know whether to say or not because sources not really confirmed.
Because Dec 25th coincides with the ancient pagan holiday of sol invitus, Unconquered Sun. New religions often adopt existing holidays so that the annoucement of the significant day is not so appalling.
Actually not everything in Christianity is original, i'll rebut that guy this way. God-eating is adopted from the Aztecs.
Even the self-sacrifice of a young man to absolve the sins of his ppl appears in the earliest traditions of Quetzacoatl.
That should have stunned that guy.

And almost comically, he digged out a US dollar bill and explained to me why in the back it writes "In God We Trust". I didn't hear his explanation. But I was looking straight at the pyramid. Why? Because that pyramid with a medallion at its tip was suggested by allegedly America's founding fathers who were freemasons. There's lots of controversies around that eventually led up to the anti-church people inside the government who wanted to debunk the church.

Maybe those above were bogus facts. Now this is real. Get this into your mind god damn it. If you think terrorists are the servants of Satan, the church is no better in the eyes of the science world. Why did the church jailed Galilee Galileo during the 1600s? Just because he backed his own idea that the universe is not centered around Earth, but the Sun. Then why the church punish him? Because the church was selfish and wanted to push the fact that Jesus would not have created a universe not centered around Gaea, Mother Earth. Many decades passed and more papers published to defend the great scientist's findings, the church still refused to admit their wrongdoings. How fair is this?

I just don't like the way Jesus comes into my life, through random people who just interrupt your life and talk about spiritual/religious issues so lightly. They just come to you and just try to deliver to you quickly that God is there, blah blah okay? Because this...so your life...and must thank God. My original thought of going to church was like walking into a tiny church filling with rows of wooden benches, hearing the pastor solemnly. But no! My first church visit was CHC. Totally different. I didn't appreciate that. Not Jesus. So chaotic. Seriously I don't believe such bizarre display of God love will attract me to God. That visit make me run away from churches. Whatever, I will visit church again, but i'll choose which to go.

Whatever, that messenger of God just screwed my Saturday morning. I never really know how to leave that guy coz i'm a man of few words and always try to be nice. Nites everyone. Mug on.

Guys. Here's the fact. The only thing that keeps me coming back to school now is GP. Uh huh. Not General Paper. It's a musical instrument. Yes you guessed it right. It's the grand piano sitting right on the stage in lecture hall 5. I tried to practise melodies of life on it today after school, but it's really slow in progressing through the 2nd score page. But Jiawei said it had good tunes! This is probably one song that cheng wai( who i regard as pop piano pro) doesn't know. Makes all the difference because only I know how to play melodies of life! Ya...but shhh...dun hao lian...I learn most of it liao then I'll update again. Hear it on the video on the right

U can find me at LT5 almost everyday after school! Yuenyan... I have some fingering problems on my piece. Always can't hit that key lol..keep missing it...And erm what's this called? when u play from the treble downwards into the bass keys, i.e for eg from A E A C# then lower and lower. My fingers always get tangled up and it destroys the flow. Ycube how do you play then?

sat. swimming again! not alone this time. with finian and liuyun :P
then went to the jap restaurant for lunch.
maybe we went there to see the waiteress. quite okay looking hehe.
$4.80 for tori katsudon, comes with 2 slices of fruit and miso soup. err anyone knows what's in a miso soup? why will the ingredients settle down after some time? does that mean those stuff in the soup is not mixable with water? If taken, then it'll not mix with water and blood in my body?!?! arhhrhH!

Finian inspired and motivated me abit today with his superb grades in sajc. you rock man! I'll unistalled a 4.5 gGB game from my comp today, in a bid to lessen the time i will spend on the machine.

Longbeanie, thanks for coming my house yesterday. And thanks for the items you gave, but in real world and in game world haha... Do you know why I didn't let you come my house on your own? Because it's weird for me! Like...i'm a guy and a girl just pop at my door, ringing the bell...its just no courtesy la...tt's why i want to walk u to my blk lolx. last of all, hope u enjoyed your time here and hopefully the FF music will keep you moving on! Go steady and grab some good grades! Tell me your grades for prelims hor!

God damn it. I'm raging with anger !That rubbish ps2 WWII flight sim game. I just can't pass that stage! And my plane always end up in fire when multiple enemy fighters chase me. DAMN. I'll nv play that again. swear.

Oh ya prelims over. Bad or good? I'll only say it's over.
Hmm i got confused today. I have chem paper 2 first then paper 1. When the paper 2 was done, I packed my stuff into my bag and was carrying my bag ready to go! Then my friend exclaimed, "Where are you going? We still have paper 1 la! " Then i felt the whole world was watching me in this show of embarrassment. (As always, I always think others are scrutinising me, which has become an over obsession with that idea for me...)

Need to burn something for longbeanie liao, cya.